Is anxiety threatening to run over you like a steam roller today? Don’t claim it. I prayed this morning for Jesus to take “my anxiety” but then I realized that I was using the wrong words. It’s not “my anxiety.” Anxiety doesn’t belong to you or me. That is not to say we don’t feel it, some of us more than others. The truth is, there are many things in the world today that cause us our stomachs to churn. Just turning on the news does it for me. Some days it seems all we can do to keep tamping it down. I used to feel it as soon as I got on the freeway in the mornings, the hum.
Going, doing, being. It sometimes gets overwhelming. But the still small voice of Jesus reminded me today that He never asked me to do or be everything. He only asked me to follow Him.
One step at a time.
When I think of all the events that have transpired just the past 5 months along, I am staggered by the fact that He brought us through it all.
Retirement. Big Anxiety.
A move to another State. More anxiety.
Getting my Mom through two surgeries and recovery.
Dealing with terrible movers.
The loss of my fur baby before we moved.
And then it seemed like everything was too much and all my words stopped flowing. Who can figure it out? When I lived in the desert, the words seemed to flow effortlessly, then I move on the banks of a beautiful river and my words seemed to flow out along with the tide. But sometimes it’s okay to be still.
And that is what I have done.
I am not the same girl who left this town many years ago. I have done tremendous things with God’s help. And in many ways I am the same, but I have also grown.
No, it’s not my anxiety. And it’s not yours either.
I am taking a step with Jesus today. Together we will walk on water. This is where I am meant to be.