“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him”………from the Prodigal story book of Luke.
I wasn’t going to blog this morning. It will be a tough day, full of challenges. Elaine’s Mom will be moving into her new home today. When everything is done, the tidal wave of emotion will come, but not yet. There is too much to do.
I was trying to think of a word for this year, and right away the word, faithfulness came. After that, it was restoration. Then it was committment. So maybe I don’t have a word yet for this year and that’s okay. I have always had a problem with too many choices. Maybe later today God will bring forth a winning word, but right now the thing that drove me to the keyboard was the idea that wouldn’t let itself rest:
We are all prodigals.
I thought how we all tend to distance ourselves from the story of the prodigal; as if we never came back to God ourselves. Yeah, right. Every single one of us belonged to God first. We were His children from the beginning. None of us is coming to Him for the first time, we are all making our way back to Him. I don’t know about you, but I had to wallow in a few pigsty’s before I came back.
So the question I pose today is, “What’s your pigsty?”
Before I came back, I worshipped many years at the temple of self-indulgence, rebellion, self-hate, anxiety, fear……you name it, I rolled in it.
I played the role of Superhero when I selfishly and recklessly withheld food from my own body, the healthy body He gave me. I proved myself a rotten steward. But He didn’t forget me. Through the prayers of my parents and others He brought me back. Then he and I had the long work of restoration together.
I spent time in the haze of alcohol dousing grief and guilt, and then after the grief disappeared the desire for alcohol didn’t. That was another pigsty I had to climb out of.
And the truth is, life is a continual process of coming home, coming back to Him. Jesus came to this earth to love those living in the pigsty, and until we get comfortable loving those who have been there, or are there still, we will never be of any use to the Kingdom.
He sees us as washed and cleansed and healed, how we could be, how we will be.
But until then, each one of us is that lost son or daughter, walking on our own dusty road home toward our Father’s kingdom.
And He waits for each one of us with open arms.
“Jesus came to this earth to love those living in the pigsty, and until we get comfortable loving those who have been there, or are there still, we will never be of any use to the Kingdom.” This sentence just broke me in two. I’ve had dwellings in many pigsties in my lifetime. And even right now, I feel like I’m in the midst of wallowing and mud wrestling.
I’m grateful for your sincerity and raw honesty in all of your writing, Lori. It helps me to feel less alone in my struggles.
Pam
Pam, I so appreciate you, and I know the Lord is in the midst of whatever it is you are going through. He is faithful and I know you are faithful to Him. You are not alone, I assure you. Sometimes it seems that no sooner than we get throught with one battle that another one starts up and we have to fight that one too! But somehow, God gives us enough strength and more than we need. You are in my thoughts and prayers, dear friend! Lori