Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:12-14
If there is one thing that pain and loss and life have taught me it’s that if I live each day with the goal of wanting to please God more in thought word and deed, I greatly minimize the things I regret.
I never seem to regret doing the right thing in hindsight, only the wrong things.
Anger, resentment, worry, selfishness…..all those petty little things I let come between myself and others mean nothing in light of eternity. And now, when time and God have mellowed and aged me, well, more like knocked me upside the head, I would give anything to have those years back.
Time that should have been cherished is forever tainted and that can’t be changed, but I can do something about the time I have right now.
I can cherish it. So today I will gather my loved ones close around me like a precious bouquet. I will inhale deeply, appreciating the sweetness they bring to my life while I still have them. And if they are not near, I will remember to write or call.
Dwelling on the past is never healthy, and yet not all looking back is bad, because it can inspire us to change how we live now. Though my heart aches with scar tissue memory of words I never should have said and things I never should have done, I don’t waste my time punishing myself because there is too much love to give now.
And there is no time to waste. Because time is precious and years have wings.