O give thanks to the LORD, for he is good: for his mercy endures for ever. Psalm
We had our gift exchange last night, Elaine and I. It was our little window of opportunity for some Christmas quiet time and we took it. Her Mom had gone to bed early, as she has done ever since winter has brought early darkness. It was a touch and go day yesterday, the Alzheimer’s was kicking in and she was a bit combative.
At one point, Elaine peeked in the door and found that she had taken every last pair of pants out of her closet and piled them on the bed. Then she opened Elaine’s jewelry box and had the contents spread all over the bed. She said, “I don’t know where all this came from.”
And she has been going through other things in the house. I guess that is common at certain stages of the disease, along with not wanting to bathe and the rocking and pacing.
It has been a very challenging year no doubt about it, and yet last night Christmas came there in our little island of peace by the tree. And all I kept saying over and over…”This is just too much, this is too good…..I don’t deserve it” and I was feeling it on the inside as well as the outside.
And it wasn’t just the gifts, it was everything that went behind the gifts. Because I know the giver. I know her heart, and I have never stopped seeing it give giving this whole year. That’s why it matters.
And when you know the Giver of that most perfect gift the world has ever seen?
Only Endless gratitude can be the heart’s right response, no matter what the world throws your way. Gratitude tips the scales when you know God has already given you everything He has to give.
Today, I drove on an almost deserted freeway to put in my last day of work, but in my heart, I am bearing treasures too many to count.
Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift! 2 Corinthians 9:15