MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
Through the Year With Thomas Merton
After reading this I realized that this is the way I feel much of the time…..like a ship adrift at sea, not sure where the shore is but knowing nevertheless that it, and God are there. Then suddenly, just when He knows I need it most, the comforting beacon blazes forth, showing me that I was going the right way all along.
A light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not understood it. John 1:5